Friday, September 24, 2004
~what a day~
Yesterday started of with a bang.
Tessa told me her dad had changed his mind.kinda sad but i can't really do much about it, though right? my mum said i was very nice about it..my dad got his way..i bet he was secretly praying something would happen...evil...sigh...my sis promised we'll go to any decent concert when she comes and when i go there...so it's cool...wonder who'll be coming to Australia...hms...
then we had a math test...couldn't concentrate at all!...got the last question wrong...really really careless....so distracted...the whole time that new blue song was going through my head....sigh...
after recess...we got back our lit...didn't really do too well...especially the second question....sigh...really deteriorating this term....no, wait...this semester...
was really depressed yesterday...dunno why..that whole feeling of nothingness just surfaced yet again yesterday...tired...lost...don't really understand why i'm doing anything...or what i'm doing here in the first place....i mean...all i want to do is sleep and never wake up so that i can just live in my dreams...
sigh
but
thanks deborah and nicole!...studying with u both cheered me up...a lot...really appreciate it....and deborah...haha..i'll miss u too when i leave!!.and please...stop saying i'm going to go on another journey of knowledge...the comment is 3 years old!....haha...
very unfit...going to the gym today, though..YAY!...after i do pw...will be really fun...ok, i'm not weird or anything...but gyms are fun!..probably run on the treadmill or something like that....
hopefully, i can go to trinity tomorrow wiht hannah, nicole, melissa & co...hope my mum lets me...afraid of asking dad...i mean...he asked me if i needed that miniature bible with an agry look!...i can't find it anymore, which means that he probably threw it away...or something..my mum never did anything to it...despite all those times she came across it next to my bed...so maybe she'll be easier to talk to...can't go for the seeker's service at CMC...with char and kelly though....got violin...sigh...ohwell...
going to go on a media fast...no computer...except for pw...no internet...no tv...dunno about phone...but there'll be the radio...and nicole's going to lend me hillsongs(!)...music, my trusty companion...anyway...havta go now...bye!
p.s.Laura&Maya:enjoy the american idols concert! bring me back pics and stuff!
everyone else:good luck for your exams! take care!
White Houses - Vanessa Carlton
Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bungalow with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day
Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon
It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last
It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses
My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake
Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses
And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses
In white houses
In white houses
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